It’s been over two months since I last posted on my blog and it’s stressing me out. I don’t even have the reason of migraines to fall back on, I’ve just been… not really feeling writing, at the moment, so I haven’t forced it. I’ve either been pushing it to the back of my mind and ignoring, or feeling guilty/beating myself up when I do think about it – neither is good.
In the last 18 months or so, literally dozens more bloggers have popped up in Brighton. People are using bots, vying for Google positions and likes on Instagram, etc, and I just feel like it’s all become very different and extremely competitive.
I guess, in a nutshell, I’m no good at, nor have any interest in playing ‘the game’. I’m one of the few not wishing to monetise, nor to gain work or use my platforms to do anything other than talk about food and Brighton life. To be clear, that’s not me dissing anyone who is (at all), fair do’s to you if you’re making a living from it, it’s just not what I want.
I’m not keen on a lot of the politics in ‘the scene’ and networking makes me feel verrrrry uncomfortable. I’m not motivated by freebies, don’t get me wrong, it’s lovely to be invited to review and I’m super grateful for all of the amazing experiences I’ve had and lovely and talented people I’ve met, off the back of my blog. It’s just that more recently, rather than be enjoyable, it’s felt like a pressure to deliver within a time frame, or I’ll be letting people down, something I try not to do, in any part of my life.
The glorious thing about Rosie Posie’s Puddings & Pies being a hobby, and something I started, essentially for fun, is, that I don’t have to force myself to do anything. I don’t want to be under pressure to ‘perform’, because the second I feel like I have to, it’s the last thing I want to do, and I withdraw.
Thank you to all the (surprisingly large number of) people who have messaged me to ask if I’m ok/when my reviews are coming back – it’s so lovely of you (heart eyed emoji). This jaded feeling will pass, it always does, and I really do want to keep my blog going – I just want it to be fun again.
I really appreciate you sticking with me in the interim, and there’s always lots to look at on my social media, so head on over and follow me there, if you’re missing me.